I got a call back yesterday from Windsor Charter Academy regarding the job teaching sample. I didn't get the job.
It wasn't much of a surprise considering how things went last time. The principal called to tell me that "After viewing the lesson samples, we decided to go with someone who had actually taught 5th grade before." I was totally okay with it. It's amazing to think how far I had come. I did get an opportunity to share with her how I felt about things which was good for me.
I told her that I really appreciated the opportunity they gave me, but I also apologized because I felt like I didn't represent the best "me" there is. She said that they did have some concerns with my classroom management (not a surprise considering I already knew how they felt), but they did appreciate me coming out there. I then shared with her that I may have a more relaxed way I manage my classroom, but it doesn't mean I don't know what is going on. I just address certain things at different times. Some people may have a problem with that. I just do what works for me.
I then continued to explain to her that I didn't appreciate how the Dean was sitting in the back of the class and talking to the lady next to her. I said that it was very rude and quite distracting to both me and the students who were seated by her. The principal told me that the would address that issue, but who knows if it will be addressed. I am just proud that I had stood up for myself. It is something I struggle with from time to time.
So for the time being, I still haven't heard from my first choice school, but I still have a job to go back to in case nothing pans out for this summer. I'm just enjoying my time off with the girls. They are taking swimming lessons and having a blast. That is our big excitement of the day lately.
We are leaving for our big vacation on Friday. We are going to drive overnight to see Jason's sister, Kelly in Wisconsin for about four days, then we are driving to Minnesota to visit my brother, Ted for another four days or so. It should be a great time. We are excited. I will be sure to post bunches of pictures when we get back.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Class Reunion
Here I am 10 years after graduating from High School. I can't believe it has been that long.
My class reunion was this weekend, and I was definitely looking forward to it. I never really kept in contact with my classmates, so I was looking forward to this new opportunity to do better this time around. I was excited to show everyone how different I am and how much of a better person I am (or at least that's how I feel). I truly think I have really grown a lot as a person. I am happy with who I have become.
I know that in High School I was just like every other teenager: feeling pretty awkward most of the time and just wanting so badly for others to accept me for who I was. I find that not much has changed in that area. I'm just 10 years older, and still feeling the strong need for people to accept and like me. I have always been that way. What can I say, I'm a people pleaser. I will be that way until the day I die.
I never had that one true best friend in High School. Yeah, I had friends, but not that one true friend that would be there for me no matter what. That is still something I long for even today. In school I would find myself wandering from one group of friends to another depending on who I felt most comfortable with from one day to another. I think that is why I still don't have that one true friend. It does make me sad to see all my other classmates still hanging out with each other, and here I am still trying to find who I feel the most comfortable around.
I went to the first event last night not knowing what to expect. I arrived to find many familiar faces of people whom I was surprised to remember their names. What surprised me more was that there were many who remembered me. I just thought I was just "some girl" in the midst of our nearly 400-student class. There were a lot of people who I expected to see there, but many who I had hoped to see were not there. Many of the people who I hung out with were not there, and again I found myself wandering around and making small talk to people I knew, but we never hung out in school. I felt just as socially awkward as I did in school. It's funny how I think I have changed in 10 years only to find that I am just the same.
It didn't surprise me to find that the people who were freakishly attractive are still the same, but the only thing different is that they have found an equally attractive spouse with amazingly beautiful children. The token screw-ups are still just as much of screw-ups and already drunk within an hour of the reunion starting. There are the same cliques, and the same group of people who still won't talk to you even after 10 years.
I was encouraged, though by many people who were genuinely interested in finding out what I had been up to and what is going on in my life. That was nice to find. I was also surprised to find those who never took the time to talk to me before, were eager to talk to me. It's funny how things have changed...and how they haven't.
It was good to see some familiar faces, but I left still feeling just as empty and friendless as before. I still hope to find that true friend someday.
My class reunion was this weekend, and I was definitely looking forward to it. I never really kept in contact with my classmates, so I was looking forward to this new opportunity to do better this time around. I was excited to show everyone how different I am and how much of a better person I am (or at least that's how I feel). I truly think I have really grown a lot as a person. I am happy with who I have become.
I know that in High School I was just like every other teenager: feeling pretty awkward most of the time and just wanting so badly for others to accept me for who I was. I find that not much has changed in that area. I'm just 10 years older, and still feeling the strong need for people to accept and like me. I have always been that way. What can I say, I'm a people pleaser. I will be that way until the day I die.
I never had that one true best friend in High School. Yeah, I had friends, but not that one true friend that would be there for me no matter what. That is still something I long for even today. In school I would find myself wandering from one group of friends to another depending on who I felt most comfortable with from one day to another. I think that is why I still don't have that one true friend. It does make me sad to see all my other classmates still hanging out with each other, and here I am still trying to find who I feel the most comfortable around.
I went to the first event last night not knowing what to expect. I arrived to find many familiar faces of people whom I was surprised to remember their names. What surprised me more was that there were many who remembered me. I just thought I was just "some girl" in the midst of our nearly 400-student class. There were a lot of people who I expected to see there, but many who I had hoped to see were not there. Many of the people who I hung out with were not there, and again I found myself wandering around and making small talk to people I knew, but we never hung out in school. I felt just as socially awkward as I did in school. It's funny how I think I have changed in 10 years only to find that I am just the same.
It didn't surprise me to find that the people who were freakishly attractive are still the same, but the only thing different is that they have found an equally attractive spouse with amazingly beautiful children. The token screw-ups are still just as much of screw-ups and already drunk within an hour of the reunion starting. There are the same cliques, and the same group of people who still won't talk to you even after 10 years.
I was encouraged, though by many people who were genuinely interested in finding out what I had been up to and what is going on in my life. That was nice to find. I was also surprised to find those who never took the time to talk to me before, were eager to talk to me. It's funny how things have changed...and how they haven't.
It was good to see some familiar faces, but I left still feeling just as empty and friendless as before. I still hope to find that true friend someday.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Living Life's Journey
Okay, so life lately has been pretty crazy.
School is officially out for summer and I couldn't be happier. I have needed this break. Over the course of this past school year, I have been feeling more and more prompted to leave my school. I love what I am doing and what I am teaching, but I have this strong sense that God is calling me to be elsewhere.
In April I interviewed at this school just about 15 minutes away from home. It was for a position where I would be teaching EXACTLY the same thing I am teaching now. Just a different school. The interview went very well; however, they decided to offer the position to another person. Darn. I was liking the idea of being there. Not so fast. They did say that I was one of the top contenders for that position and that they wanted to keep my information on file because another position may be opening up later. Well, nothing has happened yet, but it's only June.
Just last week I heard about a 5th grade teaching position at a school in Windsor. This is a school I had tried to get into in the past, but nothing had come of it. The thing that makes this story interesting is that this school is the same one I had dreamt about and blogged about here. I have had a few other dreams lately about this same school. I still don't know if God is calling me to this particular school, or if he is using this school as an example for the purpose of His message. My friend e-mailed me, and the next day I was at the school dropping off my application packet.
They called me in for an interview which I had today, and it seemed to go well. I think I was able to show a positive part of me that they seemed to like. It's just so hard when you have interviews. You never truly know what they think of you until you hear whether or not you got the job. The questions that really annoy me are the ones that say, "Describe your classroom management style." Ugh! That is such a vague question that requires such a specific response! I started bumbling over my words, but eventually came up with a reasonable response. I was feeling pretty good about things until they told me that they had already interviewed three other applicants and there will be three more on Thursday, and two more on Monday!!! Things aren't looking too great right now. I don't know. I hate dealing with this sense of uncertainty. I should be hearing something by next Tuesday. If I am one of the primary candidates, then I will go in and teach a mini-lesson to a random group of students. That I don't mind. It's just trying to shine enough and make myself stand out against so many others that are trying to do the same.
It doesn't stop there. I got a call about two hours after my interview from a principal from another school around here who wants to have me in for an interview at their school! Yipee! Yet another opportunity! This is also another Core Knowledge school which I had tried to get into about three years ago when I was pregnant with Audrey. That's another story. You say there isn't pregnancy discrimination, but it is alive and well! Three years later and another principal later, they give me a call. They are looking to fill both a 5th and a 6th grade position. I would love to do 6th grade again and teaching what I already am now, but I'll take what I can get! I have an interview with them on Friday morning. We'll see where that takes me.
I'm excited for the potential that there really is something out there for me and that those dreams I have been having aren't just sub-conscious makings of my own. I know the dreams are from God, but it's always nice when things come back around and I can see the confirmation of His promises. As for now, I'm just living life's journey. Wherever it takes me.
School is officially out for summer and I couldn't be happier. I have needed this break. Over the course of this past school year, I have been feeling more and more prompted to leave my school. I love what I am doing and what I am teaching, but I have this strong sense that God is calling me to be elsewhere.
In April I interviewed at this school just about 15 minutes away from home. It was for a position where I would be teaching EXACTLY the same thing I am teaching now. Just a different school. The interview went very well; however, they decided to offer the position to another person. Darn. I was liking the idea of being there. Not so fast. They did say that I was one of the top contenders for that position and that they wanted to keep my information on file because another position may be opening up later. Well, nothing has happened yet, but it's only June.
Just last week I heard about a 5th grade teaching position at a school in Windsor. This is a school I had tried to get into in the past, but nothing had come of it. The thing that makes this story interesting is that this school is the same one I had dreamt about and blogged about here. I have had a few other dreams lately about this same school. I still don't know if God is calling me to this particular school, or if he is using this school as an example for the purpose of His message. My friend e-mailed me, and the next day I was at the school dropping off my application packet.
They called me in for an interview which I had today, and it seemed to go well. I think I was able to show a positive part of me that they seemed to like. It's just so hard when you have interviews. You never truly know what they think of you until you hear whether or not you got the job. The questions that really annoy me are the ones that say, "Describe your classroom management style." Ugh! That is such a vague question that requires such a specific response! I started bumbling over my words, but eventually came up with a reasonable response. I was feeling pretty good about things until they told me that they had already interviewed three other applicants and there will be three more on Thursday, and two more on Monday!!! Things aren't looking too great right now. I don't know. I hate dealing with this sense of uncertainty. I should be hearing something by next Tuesday. If I am one of the primary candidates, then I will go in and teach a mini-lesson to a random group of students. That I don't mind. It's just trying to shine enough and make myself stand out against so many others that are trying to do the same.
It doesn't stop there. I got a call about two hours after my interview from a principal from another school around here who wants to have me in for an interview at their school! Yipee! Yet another opportunity! This is also another Core Knowledge school which I had tried to get into about three years ago when I was pregnant with Audrey. That's another story. You say there isn't pregnancy discrimination, but it is alive and well! Three years later and another principal later, they give me a call. They are looking to fill both a 5th and a 6th grade position. I would love to do 6th grade again and teaching what I already am now, but I'll take what I can get! I have an interview with them on Friday morning. We'll see where that takes me.
I'm excited for the potential that there really is something out there for me and that those dreams I have been having aren't just sub-conscious makings of my own. I know the dreams are from God, but it's always nice when things come back around and I can see the confirmation of His promises. As for now, I'm just living life's journey. Wherever it takes me.
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